I could of lost you, but I didn’t. It doesn’t mean it won’t ever happen, though. It’s hard knowing that I don’t have your trust anymore, and that you have your doubts on me now. I don’t blame you.. One of the worst feelings out there is when the person you love tells you that they are starting to lose feelings for you. But when both people in a relationship are starting to lose feelings, you wonder why still be together? It’s not that easy to let go. It’s hard to think about that who you once had, will no longer be yours anymore. Everyone knows the difficulty of losing someone that was once close to them. But before we even ever end this relationship, I want to see if what we once had is still there. I don’t want this relationship to be an on-and-off thing. We both had those strong feelings for each other before, I believe that those feelings will come back again.
Seeing more people getting their driver’s license.. I’d be lying if I say that I’m not jealous.
“I just called to hear your voice and that I love you.”
These kind of phone calls never fail to make me smile. Especially when I’m at my worst.
It’s either someone rushes me to get ready, and when I finish getting ready, they’re not ready and I end up waiting for another hour.
Or I’m the who’s not ready while they’re the one who are waiting for me to get ready.
one of the things that i absolutely hate soo much is when i’m clearly having a conversation with someone and some motherfucker just decides to come in and interrupt us and start talking about some other shit that’s irrelevant to what we were talking about
like, what the fuck, you motherfucker
where the fuck did you even come from
GO AWAY
I’m never happy for a long period of time.
I’ll be happy for a good few hours, then I’m back to being pissed off and annoyed.
I can’t wait for summer.
I’m just here, impatiently waiting for summer 2012. There are a few more months of school left and I just want it to be over with already. I’m not one of those people who say, “This summer will be my year.” Lol. All I know is that my last couple years of summer were shitttt. Just straight up boring. I just want this summer to be better. All I want is to be stress-free from school, get enough sleep as much as I want, spend time with some friends and my boyfriend, go out, travel someplace else, and just have fun. And I seriously miss the sun, too. The sun has been nonexistent here in Washington. As always.. I just cannot wait. I want summer here already.
I actually received these Monday morning while I was in my second period class. Out of no where, someone delivered these gifts to me; which included a teddy bear, chocolate Hersey’s Kisses, a dozen roses, and a card! And, of course, it was from my boyfriend. :’) I read what he wrote in the card and I couldn’t stop smiling the whole time I was reading it. At the bottom of the card, he asked me if I wanted to be his Valentine. I sent him a text and I obviously said, “Yess!” Hahah. Cutest thing anyone has ever done for me. He always know how to make my day! Definitely a keeper.
I have a bad habit of waiting until the end of the semester for me to bring my grades up.
2 months.
This has been our second month of us being officially together. We didn’t really started out too great on our 2-month.. A little argument happened, but we’ve eventually got over it and still happily together. You mean the world to me, Andy Siv Ung. You really do. I’m so happy to call you my boyfriend. <3 Happy 2 Months! I love you sooo much. Forever and ever.
I haven’t gone to school at all this whole week. I’ve been up all morning the past few days because it’s so hard for me to sleep at night. And I’m still not that tired. It’s funny how I’m more tired and sleepy when I actually do have school the next day. I really don’t want to make up these snow days over the summer, though. -_- And I’m kind of getting a little nervous about the finals because I think I have them next week. School’s been cancelled all week, so I really don’t remember much.. Soo, I’m fucked. Lool. It was nice being away from school, though. And away from all the annoying asss people there.
When someone reblogs something from me saying a stupid or annoying comment, I just want to reblog it from them and tell them to shut the fuck up and shit, but I hold that urge to do so.. -_-
It’d be nice to have someone to workout with. Someone who I could go jogging, running, go to the gym and stuff like that. I would go, but I don’t want to go alone. I’d rather have someone come with me. Haha.
I don’t know why I always do it.
Here I go. Fucking things up again. Me putting you down, always upsetting and disappointing you, letting those tears run down your cheeks, making you feel like I don’t have a care in the world about you, and the lack of effort I am giving to you. I don’t know why I’m always treating you like this. You don’t deserve any bit of it; you deserve so much more. This behavior of mine is just giving you the wrong signals. I know that you feel as if I don’t care about you, that you’re not worth fighting for, that I always want to make you unhappy, that I’m not serious about you, that I don’t pay attention to you, that I want to leave you, and that everything is your fault. All of that is not true. I fucking hate how I add on more stress on you. I really fucking hate it. I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me. But I want you to know that I want to be better. I’m tired of treating you like dirt, and I know you do, too. I’ll try to stop. I will stop. I don’t want to treat you like that anymore. I know that it may seem like I don’t care, but I really do. I want to be there for you. I want to cheer you up when you’re feeling down. I want you to be happy.
